~ Robin Williams
As many of you noticed, I took a rather long… siesta from blogging, and as I mentioned in last week’s post, I had some personal issues I’m dealing/struggling with. And we all have these issues, I know. Where you feel as if life is passing you by, or you’re going through the motions but not really living. Or, and this is my personal downfall, you feel as if your life is out of control.
Which always seems to be a Catch-22. It’s your life, and yet, you feel it’s out of your control. And if there’s one thing you should perhaps be able to control it’s your own life, right? We’re so very, very wrong. aren’t we?
A few weeks ago, I started dreaming about Hitler. I was helping Hitler pick out a new wardrobe, and I had to make sure he had dinner. It was very off-putting, dreaming about one of the most nefarious men in history, let me tell you. So is it any surprise that I Googled “Hitler dreams meaning” when I awoke.
To see Hitler in your dream symbolizes oppression, fear, manipulation of power, and absolute control. The dream could be brought about by a situation where you are feeling helpless or by someone who is overly controlling or is making you feel less than human.
Talk about feeling like your life is spiraling out of control, right? But there was hope out there.
A few days later, Sassy Booties and I went to a psychic fair.
Please, lower your eyebrows.
And maybe close your mouth.
Yes, you read that right. Mo went to a psychic fair.
And found out most of what I knew about myself was true, and Abbeygale Quinn is no charlatan as everything she shared with me was true. I gave her no information about myself except my name and my question so either a) she is extremely good at reading people across the table or b) she has a true gift. Of course, it can also be a wonderful combination of the two.
I’m digressing again, aren’t I?
Abbeygale told me I am a fiery ball of red and orange energy, or aura if you will, but that I’m on the fence. Apparently, my energy is so fiery I can stop a room just by walking into it if I wanted. Which she pointed out had happened. “Everyone here who is a reader stopped and looked up when you came into the room, your energy is that intense.” She then asked if I was a fire sign, to which I said no, I’m an air. “Do you happen to know your moon sign? Because I’m picking up a lot of Aries signals from you.” I shook my head again and Abbeygale suggested I Google my moon sign after our reading. Progressing with the reading, Abbeygale explained because I have been feeling lost and out of control lately, I’m in danger of letting my energy overflow into a fiery inferno, a wildfire, and hurting everyone around me whereas my natural tendency is to be like the sun and nurture and shower love upon everyone and thing in my path. She also mentioned I had a very angry childhood (I did) and that while I’m beginning to let go of my anger, I still sometimes feel as if people are repeatedly stabbing me in the chest if they’re criticizing me (I do).
And then Abbeygale looked at me and said, “I wish you could see just how far ahead of the curve you really are.”
She explained I have all the tools I need to succeed, but that I just need to use them. I’m in the right profession, but that my own fear of taking a leap is holding me back from success. Once I take the leap, the world will pretty much be my oyster (my words, not hers). And she gave me a few places to start.
I did of course ask about love. First she asked me if I was upset about not being in a relationship, if it bothered me. I confirmed that it does, but only in the sense that I’m afraid I will never experience love again. With a faint smile and a nod, Abbeygale said, “Well, I have good news and bad news. The good news is that you’re not destined to walk the rest of your path alone; which by the way, I really dislike telling people. The bad news is that it’s not going to happen immediately. But when it happens, it’s going to be very passionate. And… stable. That’s going to be new for you, isn’t it?” I nodded with a gigantic smile on my face.
“Do you know what your problem is, what’s holding you back from a relationship?” Abbeygale asked.
“I can guess,” I said with a smile.
“You’re too smart….”
“… for my own good?”
“I’ve never told anyone that before but it sounds like this doesn’t come as any news flash to you,” Abbeygale smiled.
“Not really,” I shrugged. “My mom tells me that all the time.”
“Well, it’s true,” Abbeygale said. “Which is why it’s still going to take some time. You’ve got some things to work on before it happens.”
Abbeygale suggested I get started on grounding myself. She laughed and said, “I’d recommend meditation, but that would drive you nuts, wouldn’t it?” Seeing my nod of confirmation, Abbeygale suggested I try something martial arts related such as Tai Chi as it would keep me both occupied and teach me to quiet my mind so I can balance myself out. I also need to stop saying “I can’t” so much and begin saying “I can” lest I become a self-fulling prophecy.
And just to drive the point home, before Abbeygale moved on to her next client she said, “I wish you understood just how much you have to work with. So many people come to see me who are so messed up with no hope of ever getting to where you are right now. You have all the tools you need to become a success.”
Speaking of success, I Googled a free astrological chart while I was waiting for Sassy Booties to finish her session. And guess what? Abbeygale was right. My moon sign is Aries.